If I must tell more
tales of Raffles, I can but back to our earliest days together, and fill
in the blanks left by discretion in existing annals. In so doing I may
indeed fill some small part of an infinitely greater blank, across which
you may conceive me to have stretched my canvas for the first frank
portrait of my friend. The whole truth cannot harm him now. I shall
paint in every wart. Raffles was a villain, when all is written; it is
no service to his memory to glaze the fact; yet I have done so myself
before to-day. I have omitted whole heinous episodes. I have dwelt
unduly on the redeeming side. And this I may do again, blinded even as I
write by the gallant glamour that made my villain more to me than any
hero. But at least there shall be no more reservations, and as an
earnest I shall make no further secret of the greatest wrong that even
Raffles ever did me.
I pick my words with
care and pain, loyal as I still would be to my friend, and yet
remembering as I must those Ides of March when he led me blindfold into
temptation and crime. That was an ugly office, if you will. It was a
moral bagatelle to the treacherous trick he was to play me a few weeks
later. The second offence, on the other hand, was to prove the less
serious of the two against society, and might in itself have been
published to the world years ago. There have been private reasons for my
reticence. The affair was not only too intimately mine, and too
discreditable to Raffles. One other was involved in it, one dearer to me
than Raffles himself, one whose name shall not even now be sullied by
association with ours.
Suffice it that I
had been engaged to her before that mad March deed. True, her people
called it "an understanding," and frowned even upon that, as well they
might. But their authority was not direct; we bowed to it as an act of
politic grace; between us, all was well but my unworthiness. That may be
gauged when I confess that this was how the matter stood on the night I
gave a worthless check for my losses at baccarat, and afterward turned
to Raffles in my need. Even after that I saw her sometimes. But I let
her guess that there was more upon my soul than she must ever share, and
at last I had written to end it all. I remember that week so well! It
was the close of such a May as we had never had since, and I was too
miserable even to follow the heavy scoring in the papers. Raffles was
the only man who could get a wicket up at Lord's, and I never once went
to see him play. Against Yorkshire, however, he helped himself to a
hundred runs as well; and that brought Raffles round to me, on his way
home to the Albany.
"We must dine and
celebrate the rare event," said he. "A century takes it out of one at my
time of life; and you, Bunny, you look quite as much in need of your
end of a worthy bottle. Suppose we make it the Café Royal, and eight
sharp? I'll be there first to fix up the table and the wine."
And at the Café
Royal I incontinently told him of the trouble I was in. It was the first
he had ever heard of my affair, and I told him all, though not before
our bottle had been succeeded by a pint of the same exemplary brand.
Raffles heard me out with grave attention. His sympathy was the more
grateful for the tactful brevity with which it was indicated rather than
expressed. He only wished that I had told him of this complication in
the beginning; as I had not, he agreed with me that the only course was a
candid and complete renunciation. It was not as though my divinity had a
penny of her own, or I could earn an honest one. I had explained to
Raffles that she was an orphan, who spent most of her time with an
aristocratic aunt in the country, and the remainder under the repressive
roof of a pompous politician in Palace Gardens. The aunt had, I
believed, still a sneaking softness for me, but her illustrious brother
had set his face against me from the first.
"Hector Carruthers!"
murmured Raffles, repeating the detested name with his clear, cold eye
on mine. "I suppose you haven't seen much of him?"
"Not a thing for
ages," I replied. "I was at the house two or three days last year, but
they've neither asked me since nor been at home to me when I've called.
The old beast seems a judge of men."
And I laughed bitterly in my glass.
"Nice house?" said Raffles, glancing at himself in his silver cigarette-case.
"Top shelf," said I. "You know the houses in Palace Gardens, don't you?"
"Not so well as I should like to know them, Bunny."
"Well, it's about the most palatial of the lot. The old ruffian is as rich as Croesus. It's a country-place in town."
"What about the window-fastenings?" asked Raffles casually.
I recoiled from the
open cigarette case that he proffered as he spoke. Our eyes met; and in
his there was that starry twinkle of mirth and mischief, that sunny beam
of audacious devilment, which had been my undoing two months before,
which was to undo me as often as he chose until the chapter's end. Yet
for once I withstood its glamour; for once I turned aside that luminous
glance with front of steel. There was no need for Raffles to voice his
plans. I read them all between the strong lines of his smiling, eager
face. And I pushed back my chair in the equal eagerness of my own
resolve.
"Not if I know it!"
said I. "A house I've dined in a house I've seen her in a house where
she stays by the month together! Don't put it into words, Raffles, or I'll get up and go."
"You mustn't do that
before the coffee and liqueur," said Raffles laughing. "Have a small
Sullivan first: it's the royal road to a cigar. And now let me observe
that your scruples would do you honor if old Carruthers still lived in
the house in question."
"Do you mean to say he doesn't?"
Raffles struck a
match, and handed it first to me. "I mean to say, my dear Bunny, that
Palace Gardens knows the very name no more. You began by telling me you
had heard nothing of these people all this year. That's quite enough to
account for our little misunderstanding. I was thinking of the house,
and you were thinking of the people in the house."
"But who are they,
Raffles? Who has taken the house, if old Carruthers has moved, and how
do you know that it is still worth a visit?"
"In answer to your
first question Lord Lochmaben," replied Raffles, blowing bracelets of
smoke toward the ceiling. "You look as though you had never heard of
him; but as the cricket and racing are the only part of your paper that
you condescend to read, you can't be expected to keep track of all the
peers created in your time. Your other question is not worth answering.
How do you suppose that I know these things? It's my business to get to
know them, and that's all there is to it. As a matter of fact, Lady
Lochmaben has just as good diamonds as Mrs. Carruthers ever had; and the
chances are that she keeps them where Mrs. Carruthers kept hers, if you
could enlighten me on that point."
As it happened, I
could, since I knew from his niece that it was one on which Mr.
Carruthers had been a faddist in his time. He had made quite a study of
the cracksman's craft, in a resolve to circumvent it with his own. I
remembered myself how the ground-floor windows were elaborately bolted
and shuttered, and how the doors of all the rooms opening upon the
square inner hall were fitted with extra Yale locks, at an unlikely
height, not to be discovered by one within the room. It had been the
butler's business to turn and to collect all these keys before retiring
for the night. But the key of the safe in the study was supposed to be
in the jealous keeping of the master of the house himself. That safe was
in its turn so ingeniously hidden that I never should have found it for
myself. I well remember how one who showed it to me (in the innocence
of her heart) laughed as she assured me that even her little trinkets
were solemnly locked up in it every night. It had been let into the wall
behind one end of the book-case, expressly to preserve the barbaric
splendor of Mrs. Carruthers; without a doubt these Lochmabens would use
it for the same purpose; and in the altered circumstances I had no
hesitation in giving Raffles all the information he desired. I even drew
him a rough plan of the ground-floor on the back of my menu-card.
"It was rather
clever of you to notice the kind of locks on the inner doors," he
remarked as he put it in his pocket. "I suppose you don't remember if it
was a Yale on the front door as well?"
"It was not," I was
able to answer quite promptly. "I happen to know because I once had the
key when we went to a theatre together."
"Thank you, old
chap," said Raffles sympathetically. "That's all I shall want from you,
Bunny, my boy. There's no night like tonight !"
It was one of his
sayings when bent upon his worst. I looked at him aghast. Our cigars
were just in blast, yet already he was signalling for his bill. It was
impossible to remonstrate with him until we were both outside in the
street.
"I'm coming with you," said I, running my arm through his.
"Nonsense, Bunny!"
"Why is it nonsense?
I know every inch of the ground, and since the house has changed hands I
have no compunction. Besides, 'I have been there' in the other sense as
well: once a thief, you know! In for a penny, in for a pound!"
It was ever my mood
when the blood was up. But my old friend failed to appreciate the
characteristic as he usually did. We crossed Regent Street in silence. I
had to catch his sleeve to keep a hand in his inhospitable arm.
"I really think you had better stay away," said Raffles as we reached the other curb. "I've no use for you this time."
"Yet I thought I had been so useful up to now?"
"That may be, Bunny, but I tell you frankly I don't want you tonight."
"Yet I know the
ground and you don't! I tell you what," said I: "I'll come just to show
you the ropes, and I won't take a pennyweight of the swag."
Such was the teasing
fashion in which he invariably prevailed upon me; it was delightful to
note how it caused him to yield in his turn. But Raffles had the grace
to give in with a laugh, whereas I too often lost my temper with my
point.
"You little rabbit!"
he chuckled. "You shall have your share, whether you come or not; but,
seriously, don't you think you might remember the girl?"
"What's the use?" I
groaned. "You agree there is nothing for it but to give her up. I am
glad to say that for myself before I asked you, and wrote to tell her so
on Sunday. Now it's Wednesday, and she hasn't answered by line or sign.
It's waiting for one word from her that's driving me mad."
"Perhaps you wrote to Palace Gardens?"
"No, I sent it to the country. There's been time for an answer, wherever she may be."
We had reached the Albany, and halted with one accord at the Piccadilly portico, red cigar to red cigar.
"You wouldn't like to go and see if the answer's in your rooms?" he asked.
"No. What's the
good? Where's the point in giving her up if I'm going to straighten out
when it's too late? It is too late, I have given her up, and I am coming
with you!"
The hand that bowled
the most puzzling ball in England (once it found its length) descended
on my shoulder with surprising promptitude.
"Very well, Bunny!
That's finished; but your blood be on your own pate if evil comes of it.
Meanwhile we can't do better than turn in here till you have finished
your cigar as it deserves, and topped up with such a cup of tea as you
must learn to like if you hope to get on in your new profession. And
when the hours are small enough, Bunny, my boy, I don't mind admitting I
shall be very glad to have you with me."
I have a vivid
memory of the interim in his rooms. I think it must have been the first
and last of its kind that I was called upon to sustain with so much
knowledge of what lay before me. I passed the time with one restless eye
upon the clock, and the other on the Tantalus which Raffles ruthlessly
declined to unlock. He admitted that it was like waiting with one's pads
on; and in my slender experience of the game of which he was a world's
master, that was an ordeal not to be endured without a general quaking
of the inner man. I was, on the other hand, all right when I got to the
metaphorical wicket; and half the surprises that Raffles sprung on me
were doubtless due to his early recognition of the fact.
On this occasion I
fell swiftly and hopelessly out of love with the prospect I had so
gratuitously embraced. It was not only my repugnance to enter that house
in that way, which grew upon my better judgment as the artificial
enthusiasm of the evening evaporated from my veins. Strong as that
repugnance became, I had an even stronger feeling that we were embarking
on an important enterprise far too much upon the spur of the moment.
The latter qualm I had the temerity to confess to Raffles; nor have I
often loved him more than when he freely admitted it to be the most
natural feeling in the world. He assured me, however, that he had had my
Lady Lochmaben and her jewels in his mind for several months; he had
sat behind them at first nights; and long ago determined what to take or
to reject; in fine, he had only been waiting for those topographical
details which it had been my chance privilege to supply. I now learned
that he had numerous houses in a similar state upon his list; something
or other was wanting in each case in order to complete his plans. In
that of the Bond Street jeweller it was a trusty accomplice; in the
present instance, a more intimate knowledge of the house. And lastly,
this was a Wednesday night, when the tired legislator gets early to his
bed.
How I wish I could
make the whole world see and hear him, and smell the smoke of his
beloved Sullivan, as he took me into these, the secrets of his infamous
trade! Neither look nor language would betray the infamy. As a mere
talker, I shall never listen to the like of Raffles on this side of the
sod; and his talk was seldom garnished by an oath, never in my
remembrance by the unclean word. Then he looked like a man who had
dressed to dine out, not like one who had long since dined; for his
curly hair, though longer that another's, was never untidy in its
length; and these were the days when it was still as black as ink. Nor
were there many lines as yet upon the smooth and mobile face; and its
frame was still that dear den of disorder and good taste, with the
carved book-case, the dresser and chests of still older oak, and the
Wattses and Rossettis hung anyhow on the walls.
It must have been
one o'clock before we drove in a hansom as far as Kensington Church,
instead of getting down at the gates of our private road to ruin.
Constitutionally shy of the direct approach, Raffles was further
deterred by a ball in full swing at the Empress Rooms, whence potential
witnesses were pouring between dances into the cool deserted street.
Instead he led me a little way up Church Street, and so through the
narrow passage into Palace Gardens. He knew the house as well as I did.
We made our first survey from the other side of the road. And the house
was not quite in darkness; there was a dim light over the door, a
brighter one in the stables, which stood still farther back from the
road.
"That's a bit of a
bore," said Raffles. "The ladies have been out somewhere trust them to
spoil the show! They would get to bed before the stable folk, but
insomnia is the curse of their sex and our profession. Somebody's not
home yet; that will be the son of the house; but he's a beauty, who may
not come home at all."
"Another Alick Carruthers," I murmured, recalling the one I liked least of all the household, as I remembered it.
"They might be
brothers," rejoined Raffles, who knew all the loose fish about town.
"Well, I'm not sure that I shall want you after all, Bunny."
"Why not ?"
"If the front door's
only on the latch, and you're right about the lock, I shall walk in as
though I were the son of the house myself."
And he jingled the skeleton bunch that he carried on a chain as honest men carry their latchkeys.
"You forget the inner doors and the safe."
"True. You might be useful to me there. But I still don't like leading you in where it isn't absolutely necessary, Bunny."
"Then let me lead
you, I answered, and forthwith marched across the broad, secluded road,
with the great houses standing back on either side in their ample
gardens, as though the one opposite belonged to me. I thought Raffles
had stayed behind, for I never heard him at my heels, yet there he was
when I turned round at the gate.
"I must teach you
the step," he whispered, shaking his head. "You shouldn't use your heel
at all. Here's a grass border for you: walk it as you would the plank!
Gravel makes a noise, and flower-beds tell a tale. Wait - I must carry
you across this."
It was the sweep of
the drive, and in the dim light from above the door, the soft gravel,
ploughed into ridges by the night's wheels, threatened an alarm at every
step. Yet Raffles, with me in his arms, crossed the zone of peril
softly as the pard.
"Shoes in your
pocket that's the beauty of pumps !" he whispered on the step; his light
bunch tinkled faintly; a couple of keys he stooped and tried, with the
touch of a humane dentist; the third let us into the porch. And as we
stood together on the mat, as he was gradually closing the door, a clock
within chimed a half hour in fashion so thrillingly familiar to me that
I caught Raffles by the arm. My half hours of happiness had flown to
just such chimes! I looked wildly about me in the dim light. Hat-stand
and oak settee belonged equally to my past. And Raffles was smiling in
my face as he held the door wide for my escape.
"You told me a lie!" I gasped in whispers.
"I did nothing of
the sort," he replied. "The furniture's the furniture of Hector
Carruthers; but the house is the house of Lord Lochmaben. Look here!"
He had stooped, and
was smoothing out the discarded envelope of a telegram. "Lord
Lochmaben," I read in pencil by the dim light; and the case was plain to
me on the spot. My friends had let their house, furnished, as anybody
but Raffles would have explained to me in the beginning.
"All right," I said. "Shut the door."
And he not only shut it without a sound, but drew a bolt that might have been sheathed in rubber.
In another minute we
were at work upon the study-door, I with the tiny lantern and the
bottle of rock oil, he with the brace and the largest bit. The Yale lock
he had given up at a glance. It was placed high up in the door, feet
above the handle, and the chain of holes with which Raffles had soon
surrounded it were bored on a level with his eyes. Yet the clock in the
hall chimed again, and two ringing strokes resounded through the silent
house before we gained admittance to the room.
Raffle's next care
was to muffle the bell on the shuttered window (with a silk handkerchief
from the hat-stand) and to prepare an emergency exit by opening first
the shutters and then the window itself. Luckily it was a still night,
and very little wind came in to embarrass us. He then began operations
on the safe, revealed by me behind its folding screen of books, while I
stood sentry on the threshold. I may have stood there for a dozen
minutes, listening to the loud hall clock and to the gentle dentistry of
Raffles in the mouth of the safe behind me, when a third sound thrilled
my every nerve. It was the equally cautious opening of a door in the
gallery overhead.
I moistened my lips
to whisper a word of warning to Raffles. But his ears had been as quick
as mine, and something longer. His lantern darkened as I turned my head;
next moment I felt his breath upon the back of my neck. It was now too
late even for a whisper, and quite out of the question to close the
mutilated door. There we could only stand, I on the threshold, Raffles
at my elbow, while one carrying a candle crept down the stairs.
The study-door was
at right angles to the lowest flight, and just to the right of one
alighting in the hall. It was thus impossible for us to see who it was
until the person was close abreast of us; but by the rustle of the gown
we knew that it was one of the ladies, and dressed just as she had come
from theatre or ball. Insensibly I drew back as the candle swam into our
field of vision: it had not traversed many inches when a hand was
clapped firmly but silently across my mouth.
I could forgive
Raffles for that, at any rate! In another breath I should have cried
aloud: for the girl with the candle, the girl in her ball-dress, at dead
of night, the girl with the letter for the post, was the last girl on
God's wide earth whom I should have chosen thus to encounter a midnight
intruder in the very house where I had been reluctantly received on her
account!
I forgot Raffles. I
forgot the new and unforgivable grudge I had against him now. I forgot
his very hand across my mouth, even before he paid me the compliment of
removing it. There was the only girl in all the world: I had eyes and
brains for no one and for nothing else. She had neither seen nor heard
us, had looked neither to the right hand nor the left. But a small oak
table stood on the opposite side of the hall; it was to this table that
she went. On it was one of those boxes in which one puts one's letters
for the post; and she stooped to read by her candle the times at which
this box was cleared.
The loud clock
ticked and ticked. She was standing at her full height now, her candle
on the table, her letter in both hands, and in her downcast face a sweet
and pitiful perplexity that drew the tears to my eyes. Through a film I
saw her open the envelope so lately sealed and read her letter once
more, as though she would have altered it a little at the last. It was
too late for that; but of a sudden she plucked a rose from her bosom,
and was pressing it in with her letter when I groaned aloud.
How could I help it?
The letter was for me: of that I was as sure as though I had been
looking over her shoulder. She was as true as tempered steel; there were
not two of us to whom she wrote and sent roses at dead of night. It was
her one chance of writing to me. None would know that she had written.
And she cared enough to soften the reproaches I had richly earned, with a
red rose warm from her own warm heart. And there, and there was I, a
common thief who had broken in to steal! Yet I was unaware that I had
uttered a sound until she looked up, startled, and the hands behind me
pinned me where I stood.
I think she must
have seen us, even in the dim light of the solitary candle. Yet not a
sound escaped her as she peered courageously in our direction; neither
did one of us move; but the hall clock went on and on, every tick like
the beat of a drum to bring the house about our ears, until a minute
must have passed as in some breathless dream. And then came the
awakening with such a knocking and a ringing at the front door as
brought all three of us to our senses on the spot.
"The son of the
house!" whispered Raffles in my ear, as he dragged me back to the window
he had left open for our escape. But as he leaped out first a sharp cry
stopped me at the sill. "Get back! Get back! We're trapped!" he cried;
and in the single second that I stood there, I saw him fell one officer
to the ground, and dart across the lawn with another at his heels. A
third came running up to the window. What could I do but double back
into the house? And there in the hall I met my lost love face to face.
Till that moment she
had not recognized me. I ran to catch her as she all but fell. And my
touch repelled her into life, so that she shook me off, and stood
gasping: "You, of all men! You, of all men!" until I could bear it no
more, but broke again for the study window. "Not that way not that way!"
she cried in an agony at that. Her hands were upon me now. "In there,
in there," she whispered, pointing and pulling me to a mere cupboard
under the stairs, where hats and coats were hung; and it was she who
shut the door on me with a sob.
Doors were already
opening overhead, voices calling, voices answering, the alarm running
like wildfire from room to room. Soft feet pattered in the gallery and
down the stairs about my very ears. I do not know what made me put on my
own shoes as I heard them, but I think that I was ready and even
longing to walk out and give myself up. I need not say what and who it
was that alone restrained me. I heard her name. I heard them crying to
her as though she had fainted. I recognized the detested voice of my
bete noir, Alick Carruthers, thick as might be expected of the
dissipated dog, yet daring to stutter out her name. And then I heard,
without catching, her low reply; it was in answer to the somewhat stern
questioning of quite another voice; and from what followed I knew that
she had never fainted at all.
"Upstairs, miss, did he? Are you sure?"
I did not hear her
answer. I conceive her as simply pointing up the stairs. In any case,
about my very ears once more, there now followed such a patter and tramp
of bare and booted feet as renewed in me a base fear for my own skin.
But voices and feet passed over my head, went up and up, higher and
higher; and I was wondering whether or not to make a dash for it, when
one light pair came running down again, and in very despair I marched
out to meet my preserver, looking as little as I could like the abject
thing I felt.
"Be quick!" she cried in a harsh whisper, and pointed peremptorily to the porch.
But I stood
stubbornly before her, my heart hardened by her hardness, and perversely
indifferent to all else. And as I stood I saw the letter she had
written, in the hand with which she pointed, crushed into a ball.
"Quickly!" She stamped her foot. "Quickly, if you ever cared!"
This in a whisper,
without bitterness, without contempt, but with a sudden wild entreaty
that breathed upon the dying embers of my poor manhood. I drew myself
together for the last time in her sight. I turned, and left her as she
wished for her sake, not for mine. And as I went I heard her tearing her
letter into little pieces, and the little pieces falling on the floor.
Then I remembered
Raffles, and could have killed him for what he had done. Doubtless by
this time he was safe and snug in the Albany: what did my fate matter to
him? Never mind; this should be the end between him and me as well; it
was the end of everything, this dark night's work! I would go and tell
him so. I would jump into a cab and drive there and then to his accursed
rooms. But first I must escape from the trap in which he had been so
ready to leave me. And on the very steps I drew back in despair. They
were searching the shrubberies between the drive and the road; a
policeman's lantern kept flashing in and out among the laurels, while a
young man in evening-clothes directed him from the gravel sweep. It was
this young man whom I must dodge, but at my first step in the gravel he
wheeled round, and it was Raffles himself.
"Hulloa!" he cried.
"So you've come up to join the dance as well! Had a look inside, have
you? You'll be better employed in helping to draw the cover in front
here. It's all right, officer, only another gentleman from the Empress
Rooms."
And we made a brave
show of assisting in the futile search, until the arrival of more
police, and a broad hint from an irritable sergeant, gave us an
excellent excuse for going off arm-in-arm. But it was Raffles who had
thrust his arm through mine. I shook him off as we left the scene of
shame behind.
"My dear Bunny!" he exclaimed. "Do you know what brought me back?"
I answered savagely that I neither knew nor cared.
"I had the very
devil of a squeak for it," he went on. "I did the hurdles over two or
three garden-walls, but so did the flyer who was on my tracks, and he
drove me back into the straight and down to High Street like any
lamplighter. If he had only had the breath to sing out it would have
been all up with me then; as it was I pulled off my coat the moment I
was round the corner, and took a ticket for it at the Empress Rooms."
"I suppose you had
one for the dance that was going on," I growled. Nor would it have been a
coincidence for Raffles to have had a ticket for that or any other
entertainment of the London season.
"I never asked what
the dance was," he returned. "I merely took the opportunity of revising
my toilet, and getting rid of that rather distinctive overcoat, which I
shall call for now. They're not too particular at such stages of such
proceedings, but I've no doubt I should have seen someone I knew if I
had none right in. I might even have had a turn, if only I had been less
uneasy about you, Bunny."
"It was like you to
come back to help me out," said I. "But to lie to me, and to inveigle me
with your lies into that house of all houses that was not like you,
Raffles and I never shall forgive it or you !"
Raffles took my arm
again. We were near the High Street gates of Palace Gardens, and I was
too miserable to resist an advance which I meant never to give him an
opportunity to repeat.
"Come, come, Bunny,
there wasn't much inveigling about it," said he. "I did my level best to
leave you behind, but you wouldn't listen to me."
"If you had told me
the truth I should have listened fast enough," I retorted. "But what's
the use of talking? You can boast of your own adventures after you
bolted. You don't care what happened to me."
"I cared so much that I came back to see."
"You might have spared yourself the trouble! The wrong had been done. Raffles, Raffles don't you know who she was ?"
It was my hand that gripped his arm once more.
"I guessed," he answered, gravely enough even for me.
"It was she who saved me, not you," I said. "And that is the bitterest part of all!"
Yet I told him that
part with a strange sad pride in her whom I had lost through him,
forever. As I ended we turned into High Street; in the prevailing
stillness, the faint strains of the band reached us from the Empress
Rooms; and I hailed a crawling hansom as Raffles turned that way.
"Bunny," said he,
"it's no use saying I'm sorry. Sorrow adds insult in a case like this if
ever there was or will be such another! Only believe me, Bunny, when I
swear to you that I had not the smallest shadow of a suspicion that she
was in the house."
And in my heart of hearts I did believe him; but I could not bring myself to say the words.
"You told me yourself that you had written to her in the country," he pursued.
"And that letter!" I
rejoined, in a fresh wave of bitterness: "that letter she had written
at dead of night, and stolen down to post, it was the one I have been
waiting for all these days! I should have got it tomorrow. Now I shall
never get it, never hear from her again, nor have another chance in this
world or in the next. I don't say it was all your fault. You no more
knew that she was there than I did. But you told me a deliberate lie
about her people, and that I never shall forgive."
I spoke as vehemently as I could under my breath. The hansom was waiting at the curb.
"I can say no more
than I have said," returned Raffles with a shrug. "Lie or no lie, I
didn't tell it to bring you with me, but to get you to give me certain
information without feeling a beast about it. But, as a matter of fact,
it was no lie about old Hector Carruthers and Lord Lochmaben, and
anybody but you would have guessed the truth."
"'What is the truth?"
"I as good as told you, Bunny, again and again."
"Then tell me now."
"If you read your
paper there would be no need; but if you want to know, old Carruthers
headed the list of the Birthday Honors, and Lord Lochmaben is the title
of his choice."
And this miserable
quibble was not a lie! My lip curled, I turned my back without a word,
and drove home to my Mount Street flat in a new fury of savage scorn.
Not a lie, indeed! It was the one that is half a truth, the meanest lie
of all, and the very last to which I could have dreamt that Raffles
would stoop. So far there had been a degree of honor between us, if only
of the kind understood to obtain between thief and thief. Now all that
was at an end. Raffles had cheated me. Raffles had completed the ruin of
my life. I was done with Raffles, as she who shall not be named was
done with me.
And yet, even while I
blamed him most bitterly, and utterly abominated his deceitful deed, I
could not but admit in my heart that the result was put of all
proportion to the intent: he had never dreamt of doing me this injury,
or indeed any injury at all. Intrinsically the deceit had been quite
venial, the reason for it obviously the reason that Raffles had given
me. It was quite true that he had spoken of this Lochmaben peerage as a
new creation, and of the heir to it in a fashion only applicable to
Alick Carruthers. He had given me hints, which I had been too dense to
take, and he had certainly made more than one attempt to deter me from
accompanying him on this fatal emprise; had he been more explicit, I
might have made it my business to deter him. I could not say in my heart
that Raffles had failed to satisfy such honor as I might reasonably
expect to subsist between us. Yet it seems to me to require a superhuman
sanity always and unerringly to separate cause from effect, achievement
from intent. And I, for one, was never quite able to do so in this
case.
I could not be
accused of neglecting my newspaper during the next few wretched days. I
read every word that I could find about the attempted jewel-robbery in
Palace Gardens, and the reports afforded me my sole comfort. In the
first place, it was only an attempted robbery; nothing had been taken,
after all. And then...and then...the one member of the household who had
come nearest to a personal encounter with either of us was unable to
furnish any description of the man had even expressed a doubt as to the
likelihood of identification in the event of an arrest !
I will not say with
what mingled feelings I read and dwelt on that announcement It kept a
certain faint glow alive within me until the morning brought me back the
only presents I had ever made her. They were books; jewellery had been
tabooed by the authorities. And the books came back without a word,
though the parcel was directed in her hand.
I had made up my
mind not to go near Raffles again, but in my heart I already regretted
my resolve. I had forfeited love, I had sacrificed honor, and now I must
deliberately alienate myself from the one being whose society might yet
be some recompense for all that I had lost. The situation was
aggravated by the state of my exchequer. I expected an ultimatum from my
banker by every post. Yet this influence was nothing to the other. It
was Raffles I loved. It was not the dark life we led together, still
less its base rewards; it was the man himself, his gayety, his humor,
his dazzling audacity, his incomparable courage and resource. And a very
horror of turning to him again in mere need of greed set the seal on my
first angry resolution. But the anger was soon gone out of me, and when
at length Raffles bridged the gap by coming to me, I rose to greet him
almost with a shout.
He came as though
nothing had happened; and, indeed, not very many days had passed, though
they might have been months to me. Yet I fancied the gaze that watched
me through our smoke a trifle less sunny than it had been before. And it
was a relief to me when he came with few preliminaries to the
inevitable point.
"Did you ever hear from her, Bunny ?" he asked.
"In a way," I answered. "We won't talk about it, if you don't mind, Raffles."
"That sort of way !" he exclaimed. He seemed both surprised and disappointed.
"Yes," I said, "that sort of way. It's finished. What did you expect ?"
"I don't know," said
Raffles. "I only thought that the girl who went so far to get a fellow
out of a tight place might go a little farther to keep him from getting
into another."
"I don't see why she
should," said I, honestly enough, yet with the irritation of a less
just feeling deep down in my inmost consciousness.
"Yet you did hear from her ?" he persisted.
"She sent me back my poor presents, without a word," I said, "if you call that hearing."
I could not bring
myself to own to Raffles that I had given her only books. He asked if I
was sure that she had sent them back herself; and that was his last
question. My answer was enough for him. And to this day I cannot say
whether it was more in relief than in regret that he laid a hand upon my
shoulder.
"So you are out of
Paradise after all!" said Raffles. "I was not sure, or I should have
come round before. Well, Bunny, if they don't want you there, there's a
little Inferno in the Albany where you will be as welcome as ever."
And still, with all the magic mischief of his smile, there was that touch of sadness which I was yet to read aright.
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